Last night was diff but this morning is even harder and truth Im going from feeling bad to mad really fast. It is 830 and he has called 3x and when I didnt answer he sent me this email, all before 730. So I am at a loss for what to do. I have decided its best and easier just not to answer the calls or emails but because he is the "I dont want to live without you" type I am second guessing myself. This is the email he sent me this morning just to give an idea of what I am dealing with so maybe you guys can either tell me im right to ignore or if I should be doing something else. I haven't had to deal with these dramatics since HS and am unsure of how to handle this:
Hi ****. You asked me how I could love you already and your wrong it isn’t the idea of it I love it’s you. I couldn’t answer why I love you last night but I can now. I love you because you are very supportive to me in my life and you have no idea how much I need that right now. You are an intelligent, strong and as beautiful on the inside as you are on the outside. You have a caring thoughtful nature ******** with you I know I can do anything. You have a great sense of humor, you’re a good mother. I know I love you because of the way I feel inside and right now it hurts. I am beating myself up right now for not talking more. I guess you don't think we got to know each other fast enough,****** I didn't know there were guide lines to follow. Last night was the first time we actually were able to talk where I had your full attention. You always make it feel like you are too busy doing other things, your kids are always in the background distracting you while on the phone with me, you have school work and how can I get into a serious conversation when it's like that every time I call you. You say you’re always tired but when I tell you, you don’t have to work or worry about school to make it easier for you, you get mad. If you didn’t have to work or go to school than you’d have more time for me but I guess that is more important than I am. I wanted to be a part of your life but you wouldn’t even let me meet your kids or come to your house. You never even gave me a chance. I admit I need to talk more. I so badly want to get to know you more. You are my whole life, all I wanted was to take care of you.
When your ******* passed away last week you said you need to make time in your life for the people who are important to you, that should include me. I am in love with you ****. I know you said you thought we shouldn’t talk for awhile but that’s not what I want and I am not letting you go that easy. I called you 3 times this morning and you don’t answer. Please call me I don't want to go a day without talking to you.