I think the actual act of ejaculating whether by one's own hand or a provider is only a part of the experience of this "hobby"...I realized a long time ago, the thrill of the hunt, being with a different woman and the excitement of cheating getting caught whether it be by your SO or by LE...is a huge part of not being able to stop this "hobby".....Masturbation slows it down for me a time...but as many of you know there's nothing like the anticipation of going to see either a new provider or maybe one you haven't seen in a while...In other aspects it's known as "thrill seeking" whether it be extreme sports or doing this...the bodily chemistry is identical..And that's what we become addicted too...
How do you guys stop?
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I was addicted to AMPs for a solid 15 years along with the occasional escort. There were approximately 25 amps from Greenwich to Bridgeport during the years 1985 through 2005. I experienced them all. A "grand opening" would always be a trigger to visit. During this time, there were some of the sexiest women on the planet and spending an hour with them was never enough. That is what made every visit so exciting, you never knew who was going to open the entrance door.
Yesterday is a perfect example of how quickly its triggered for me. Driving past an AMP I tried out in the past, make a quick left turn into the gas station to hit the ATM and grab some rubbers.
I am getting blown literally 5 minutes after that trigger. Its that warm feeling that pulses through you when seeing the optical trigger. Love it!
Zero desire to stop or try to control it. NO discipline at all when I want to get the nut out.
@trader1, as I have aged the urge and desire has increased in me as well. I can't get enough of the poundcake.
I am getting blown literally 5 minutes after that trigger. Its that warm feeling that pulses through you when seeing the optical trigger. Love it!
Zero desire to stop or try to control it. NO discipline at all when I want to get the nut out.
@trader1, as I have aged the urge and desire has increased in me as well. I can't get enough of the poundcake.
Being somewhat hypocritical from an earlier post.. I had a itch to satisfy today, which resulted in an hourlong session ending in 15 minutes. A quick pop and my not clicking with the AMP, had me rethinking my career as a hobbyist
Must be coming down with some illness as the libido did not cooperate- Perhaps a good night sleep will allow rejuvenation of the mind
Must be coming down with some illness as the libido did not cooperate- Perhaps a good night sleep will allow rejuvenation of the mind
Ha!!
Yes.. In my glory days, was able to pick ‘em, flip ‘em toss em for a play….
Couple of months ago I had this AMP - must have been 125 lbs - Sitting on chair while she BBBJ- Covered up and picked her up to do standing Mish..
Started to lose grip and ran across room with her slipping about to hit the floor - Threw her off me onto bed-
The look of confusion and horror in her eyes was priceless..
Yes.. In my glory days, was able to pick ‘em, flip ‘em toss em for a play….
Couple of months ago I had this AMP - must have been 125 lbs - Sitting on chair while she BBBJ- Covered up and picked her up to do standing Mish..
Started to lose grip and ran across room with her slipping about to hit the floor - Threw her off me onto bed-
The look of confusion and horror in her eyes was priceless..
I’ve the last couple years, work and finances have been volatile. SO has been unemployed a bunch and is now hyper sensitive to spending. Culminates in demanding to budget and review 6 months of bank statements and credi card statements to slow down spending. Well, smart enough to never use CC for the hobby, but certainly have plenty of $300-$500 ATM withdrawals that aren’t easily explained. Pushed back on it and gave her excel downloads, with some minor revisions, but it’s caused a riff. She wants statements. So it’s been weeks since I’ve been to my favorite AMP and just hoping to get through the next month without ATM use and start giving her statements then. Of course I’ve had to set up a whole new, undisclosed account to use.
But here is the rub. Now I’ll know exactly how much money is flowing into the hobby, something I’ve avoided acknowledging for years. And as I state of the bank balance, I now have to decide if it’s really worth it. I’m pretty sure this is going to lead to the end of my hobby days. As it should. Not healthy, not fixing the real issues, temporary enjoyment at best, usually followed by regret and depression.
I know I’ve written in this thread before, but hoping to make it a long hiatus. Would certainly help if my SO have it up a little more often!!
But here is the rub. Now I’ll know exactly how much money is flowing into the hobby, something I’ve avoided acknowledging for years. And as I state of the bank balance, I now have to decide if it’s really worth it. I’m pretty sure this is going to lead to the end of my hobby days. As it should. Not healthy, not fixing the real issues, temporary enjoyment at best, usually followed by regret and depression.
I know I’ve written in this thread before, but hoping to make it a long hiatus. Would certainly help if my SO have it up a little more often!!
You do don’t.
By the time you’re a member on the board you have made hundreds of trade offs and have gravely desensitized yourself to the point of no return. Unless you get caught or get sick with a debilitating ailment you will continue your journey. It’s a sign of health I guess that you want sex. See you all in purgatory fellas. Only thing I can say is do some good Charity work as a counterbalance. Help an old lady cross street. I’m serious. God can’t hold it that much against us for having wants that are not met by civilians. Like the song Hotel California says “you can check out anytime you want but you can never leave.”
By the time you’re a member on the board you have made hundreds of trade offs and have gravely desensitized yourself to the point of no return. Unless you get caught or get sick with a debilitating ailment you will continue your journey. It’s a sign of health I guess that you want sex. See you all in purgatory fellas. Only thing I can say is do some good Charity work as a counterbalance. Help an old lady cross street. I’m serious. God can’t hold it that much against us for having wants that are not met by civilians. Like the song Hotel California says “you can check out anytime you want but you can never leave.”
I've stopped many times, but always start up again. These times of inactivity will last weeks, months, sometimes years. The reasons for stopping have been varied. Some times it is due to money. Other times it is when my really good arrangement ends. As they all do in time.
But I wonder if I ever really stop. Every Friday I take out X amount in cash. This is my "walking around" money. Which covers a wide range of expenses. Small Home Depot purchases. Doing lunch / dinner / drinks with friends etc. The occasional monger. It's not a large amount and I can't monger every week on it. But during my "stop" times, the left over goes into an envelop and I take out the same amount on the next Friday. If I don't do a lot of "walking around" almost the entire amount goes into the envelop. During long "stop" times the envelop gets very thick. When I start up again I have an enormous cash reserve to draw on. I find I can monger 2x a week without any change in my cash flow. This monger run can last months or even years. Usually just before the envelop depletes, my situation changes and I need to "stop" again.
Not starting up again is the tough part. When the envelop gets thick it calls to me. I could go out and buy a car. Or do some home improvement. Or I could find a bunch of attractive women who will cater to my every need. As a former shy guy in high school who always had trouble talking to girls, the answer almost seems obvious.
But I wonder if I ever really stop. Every Friday I take out X amount in cash. This is my "walking around" money. Which covers a wide range of expenses. Small Home Depot purchases. Doing lunch / dinner / drinks with friends etc. The occasional monger. It's not a large amount and I can't monger every week on it. But during my "stop" times, the left over goes into an envelop and I take out the same amount on the next Friday. If I don't do a lot of "walking around" almost the entire amount goes into the envelop. During long "stop" times the envelop gets very thick. When I start up again I have an enormous cash reserve to draw on. I find I can monger 2x a week without any change in my cash flow. This monger run can last months or even years. Usually just before the envelop depletes, my situation changes and I need to "stop" again.
Not starting up again is the tough part. When the envelop gets thick it calls to me. I could go out and buy a car. Or do some home improvement. Or I could find a bunch of attractive women who will cater to my every need. As a former shy guy in high school who always had trouble talking to girls, the answer almost seems obvious.
So... i treat women that i barely know no differently than you treat your *own wife* on your honeymoon!!! Lol
And youre going to try and say im a dick hahahahahahahahahahaha
Just as a refresher. The respectable girls i ghost are looking to nail an older white man so that he takes care of them. But oh no, i lie to them.. and that is wrong.
But, getting a FS prostitute when youre on your honeymoon.... and ppl here are.calling *me* a dick and douche? LMAO LMAO !!!!!!!
And youre going to try and say im a dick hahahahahahahahahahaha
Just as a refresher. The respectable girls i ghost are looking to nail an older white man so that he takes care of them. But oh no, i lie to them.. and that is wrong.
But, getting a FS prostitute when youre on your honeymoon.... and ppl here are.calling *me* a dick and douche? LMAO LMAO !!!!!!!
Some advice:
It seems like your skin might be a little thin. Relax. Sit back let all the keyboard heroes call you names without responding, let the skin thicken and harden a little.
You are quoting posts from 3 years ago to prove your point.
Also you do not need to respond and defend yourself at every turn. It's starting to look like you are trying sell your actions to yourself more than you are to the board.
It seems like your skin might be a little thin. Relax. Sit back let all the keyboard heroes call you names without responding, let the skin thicken and harden a little.
You are quoting posts from 3 years ago to prove your point.
Also you do not need to respond and defend yourself at every turn. It's starting to look like you are trying sell your actions to yourself more than you are to the board.