Not divorced and no order of protection. Thanks
In my situation, so many trials in a marriage, raising children, finances, sickness, in-laws, influx from society, competition, disagreements. so much responsibility. Family life is a microcosm of the world.
The love is still there. Mostly positive things occurred in the marriage. But, for some stupid reason, the negative events remain highlighted.
The marriage can lose spontaneity and adventure. The focus seems to be on safety and preservation. She becomes your reliable business partner. No longer the sexy thang you married.
In some ways you love and care too much. So many worries and concerns to make sure every member of the family is safe and nurtured.
A prostitute is a carefree and easy encounter, not to mention, VARIETY. And, if she gets pissy, you don’t have to feel guilty and makeup. You just don’t return and move on.
In marriage, being the oldest male figure in the family, you like to always be strong in appearance. But, the downside of that is that you lose a place in your home to be vulnerable. You can be vulnerable with the paid help.
But, I have seen many guys, much wiser than myself, who made the marriage much smoother. Trying too hard always kills the fun.