Sex with Civilian women: Why I pay for sex.

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Yea I pay 200 too, with this petite big breast China doll name cici. We known each other for years, and I just love how she makes me feel, but I know I can't be with her, but sometimes I feel like there is hope. Like the kissing and longer hours multiple pops and sometimes our sessions get so out of control we throw out the condom. she tells me I am the only person I do this with, but I know It's not the truth. She's a liar, but she still give me some hope like a good girl. My heart kinda hurts because I always think about her