One day your fine, feeling good emotionally and physically- You go for a routine check up and sent for some additional testing- Your Dr informs you that you have a terminal illness. You drive home, tears streaming down your face, wondering if this is a dream or reality-
Sadly, you wake up every day, knowing it’s reality. Emotionally a wreck, physically- everything that you too for granted, becomes a challenge. You question faith, you ask yourself over and over, why me… There is no answer.
Thinking about retirement, traveling , enjoying things that make you happy- out the door-Today, I worry about tomorrow-
Thankful for family, friends who genuinely will do anything to help. Putting on that fake smile when asked dozens of times a day, how do you feel? Okay, I’ll say, avoiding further questions and conversation about how I really feel..
Missing much that was taken for granted.
This is why I’ve stopped
Sadly, you wake up every day, knowing it’s reality. Emotionally a wreck, physically- everything that you too for granted, becomes a challenge. You question faith, you ask yourself over and over, why me… There is no answer.
Thinking about retirement, traveling , enjoying things that make you happy- out the door-Today, I worry about tomorrow-
Thankful for family, friends who genuinely will do anything to help. Putting on that fake smile when asked dozens of times a day, how do you feel? Okay, I’ll say, avoiding further questions and conversation about how I really feel..
Missing much that was taken for granted.
This is why I’ve stopped
Being an eternal optimist, when faced with such dire predictions, and I have no further depth to decline, I sit and I take stock and seek clarity, and not necessarily a way out, but of course, that is always in the back of my mind. Everybody seeks a way out; everybody deserves a way out; there is always a way out, despite what they say.
Others have beat the rap. Are you not as human as those others that beat the rap?
In the final analysis, if you sit good and ponder, watch, analyze, realize what you are, without hope, religion, faith, but pure reasoning and acknowledgement of your experience of yourself, you will be empowered.
Everything is changing all around you. Your thoughts continually change, your emotions rise and fall, your desires come and go, fear arises and grips you, fades away during sleep, until you grasp hold of it upon awakening.
Who is the one watching this whole drama, and sometimes nightmare of life, this horror film?
Isn’t the ONE watching, YOU, always watching the drama, the constantly changing landscape, the changing tides of emotions, your physical strengths and weaknesses?
Has that One watching, the You at the center of the storm ever changed? Isn’t that One, You, watching, the same You from the first moment as an infant with conscious awareness?
Has that state of consciousness and awareness ever matured, changed, altered in any way whatsoever?
Not your mind, but the You, that is You that watches your body and mind. Has that you ever experienced any minutia of change, ever?
In all honesty, you must admit that the one called “you,” watching your life was always present watching. Can you ever remember a time when you were not aware? No. You always were and always will be nothing other than a state of birthless, deathless awareness.
If you put aside everything of the body, mind, emotions, thoughts, appearances, and let them all go, isn’t there a silent YOU, always in the background, watching, unacknowledged, forever changeless, witnessing, unaffected by time and circumstance, still, silent, FEARLESS, desireless?
In your own experience, has that You watching the changing landscape and unfoldment of your life ever aged, sickened, declined?
Take stock. Realize the truth of your own experience of the CHANGELESS YOU always observing the movie called “your life,” and realize that you are not the character in that movie, but the one who has always silently observed it.
You are not the activities and props (body and mind) in your life. You are the same as We are, indestructible awareness.
From that point of view watch and observe your present set of circumstances. You have been given some bad news. You are not “the news.” The One, You, watching “the news” essentially is not “the news” itself, but the One you have always forever been, that changeless one who forever watches.
Being the one separate from your body and mind, Master of the body and mind, can you lend your support to heal those parts of you, lesser than You?
Can you summon up the courage and audacity to accept yourself as the One in ultimate control of the course of your life?
Others, realizing themselves as essentially the pure unchanging awareness watching their life, have rewritten the script of their life with a more favorable, extended lifespan.
Others have done it. Can you? You can. You have nothing to lose, other than being mocked that you dared for one solitary moment in life, to believe that you were more powerful than your circumstances.
Everybody here, without exception, in unison fervently desire that you courageously overcome all seeming obstacles. Your victory is our victory.