I certainly feel that I could be a good wife someday. I think I could be a good mother, as well, although I don't really feel the urge to be a mommy, so I don't know.
Yes, I am screwed up. I don't know what screwed me up, but I have always been that way. On teh other hand, I see screwed up people all around me who are married with children.
My being screwed up would not mean that I can't communicate fairly and honestly with my family. It does not mean that I can't connect emotionally with others. It does not mean that I can't lead a productive and prosperous life. I will just do those things in my uniquely screwed up way.
I do those things better than many people I know. I am an honest, loyal friend. I am able to make
choices that are good for myself and the needs of others. I am loving and I will try to make the
people I care about happy. I am less selfish, thoughtless, and careless than many "normal" and
successful people I know.
Yes, I can be a good wife and mother. I don't think I would be as good at those things if I were currently working as a prostitute. Not because of the clients so much, but because of the shame
and marginalization that come with the lifestyle.
And, yes, the "You're just a whore" thing does come up in arguments. Few providers I've known
have had truly healthy relationships with men. The only exceptions have been the sort of
providers who were in the life because sex was their true vocational calling. They were basically
swingers who subscribed to the philosophy of "Do what you love and the money will follow." I've
known maybe three of those in my 9+ years of providing.
Yes, I am screwed up. I don't know what screwed me up, but I have always been that way. On teh other hand, I see screwed up people all around me who are married with children.
My being screwed up would not mean that I can't communicate fairly and honestly with my family. It does not mean that I can't connect emotionally with others. It does not mean that I can't lead a productive and prosperous life. I will just do those things in my uniquely screwed up way.
I do those things better than many people I know. I am an honest, loyal friend. I am able to make
choices that are good for myself and the needs of others. I am loving and I will try to make the
people I care about happy. I am less selfish, thoughtless, and careless than many "normal" and
successful people I know.
Yes, I can be a good wife and mother. I don't think I would be as good at those things if I were currently working as a prostitute. Not because of the clients so much, but because of the shame
and marginalization that come with the lifestyle.
And, yes, the "You're just a whore" thing does come up in arguments. Few providers I've known
have had truly healthy relationships with men. The only exceptions have been the sort of
providers who were in the life because sex was their true vocational calling. They were basically
swingers who subscribed to the philosophy of "Do what you love and the money will follow." I've
known maybe three of those in my 9+ years of providing.