I have a quagmire in my head. It all began with internet and the easy access to porn.
Man, the internet fucked my mind up. I went from the fun teen blond lesbian porn. Then it got boring.
Slowing I went up the ladder to MMF porn.
Than that got boring. Then went to mature porn (not granny, but up to 40s). Then had a small period in BDSM (didn't like it too much), got tired.
Looked at watersports once, got disgusted almost threw up, never looked at it again.
Then everything in between. Got boring. Not the same anymore.
And one day... hmm.. what's a shemale? I had an idea, but why the fuck not.
Then the fucked up psychological problem set in.
First I would only watch when its a Shemale with Chick.
Then I would watch Shemale with Shemale or Chick
Then It would be only Shemale with Shemale/Chick/Guy (but guy was supposed to do the fucking ONLY)
Then I slipped further...
And this crept in real life. Before I would contain this as a thing of fantasy, fuck it, a lot of people fantasize about fucked up shit.
So I saw providers. Nice ones. I love women. I love the whole nine. Then on a business trip to Miami, one night in South Beach, I was in a hotel, drunk, and decided to go on eros. Go there, hmm..why not the TS section. And there was my first experience.
Then a few more. The worst is that after every fucking time with a TS i feel pissed off. I swear to myself that this is the last time. I am a man goddamit. I am not attracked to men. These are NOT chicks with dicks. They are man with tits. Want to puke.
Two, three weeks later, hmm, chick with a dick... and there I am on Eros or CL again.
Many times I just look and don't call. But once in a while I pick up that phone and get pissed at myself for it later.
Fucked up shit, aint it.
Man, the internet fucked my mind up. I went from the fun teen blond lesbian porn. Then it got boring.
Slowing I went up the ladder to MMF porn.
Than that got boring. Then went to mature porn (not granny, but up to 40s). Then had a small period in BDSM (didn't like it too much), got tired.
Looked at watersports once, got disgusted almost threw up, never looked at it again.
Then everything in between. Got boring. Not the same anymore.
And one day... hmm.. what's a shemale? I had an idea, but why the fuck not.
Then the fucked up psychological problem set in.
First I would only watch when its a Shemale with Chick.
Then I would watch Shemale with Shemale or Chick
Then It would be only Shemale with Shemale/Chick/Guy (but guy was supposed to do the fucking ONLY)
Then I slipped further...
And this crept in real life. Before I would contain this as a thing of fantasy, fuck it, a lot of people fantasize about fucked up shit.
So I saw providers. Nice ones. I love women. I love the whole nine. Then on a business trip to Miami, one night in South Beach, I was in a hotel, drunk, and decided to go on eros. Go there, hmm..why not the TS section. And there was my first experience.
Then a few more. The worst is that after every fucking time with a TS i feel pissed off. I swear to myself that this is the last time. I am a man goddamit. I am not attracked to men. These are NOT chicks with dicks. They are man with tits. Want to puke.
Two, three weeks later, hmm, chick with a dick... and there I am on Eros or CL again.
Many times I just look and don't call. But once in a while I pick up that phone and get pissed at myself for it later.
Fucked up shit, aint it.