Dude. I just did that today. I had the serious urge for a taste test and said I'm running to the store and gas. Well I did do all that but first a pit stop. Went home with groceries like nothing happened. Fuck
I almost left my wife for an AMP girl. Once sold my inheritance of jewelry, antique gold watches, gold chains to finance extra AMP visits. Totaled two cars making midnight runs. At one point, I had to do an AMP or two everyday. Made dates and weekends with the AMP girls and had short vacations with them. Was invited to AMP girl dinners and birthday bashes. Met and schooled their children. Helped and attended hearings and filled out documents for their immigration and their family's immigration, green cards and naturalization court hearings. Helped in their legal proceedings when they were arrested. Did their advertising. Was present during raids. brought them to doctors and hospitals. Opened an English school in a Flushing AMP where girls from the surrounding AMP's would attend my lectures and classes. Fed their children while they were in jail. And some things I must leave out as they are really too embarrassing to say even under my alias. Out of control beyond belief. Loved the decadent smell of an AMP. Got a rush just driving by one. The whole mystique of a new girl -- sold my soul to the devil -- and still stayed married and raised a family and was flawless in my profession. Well, I never let my profession falter because there would be no money for AMP's.
But now the crisis is over. It is just a hobby. I wish I could say that I used force of will to control it but that would be a hypocritical lie. "IT" had me and "IT" let go of me.
And its not like I lost my desire for sex. I can have a hard-on, notice it and move onto other business and the blood locked in the erection is made good use of somewhere else in my body, muscles for swimming or brain for concentration, work, and also meditation, prayer and qi-gong practices.
When I was young and even throughout my 50's, it was impossible to control. I always had a desire to be free from all addictions but at the same time could not give this one up cold turkey.
It was once described to me thus: "try to rip the skin off from the snake and it is impossible, without killing the snake. But in the right season, the snake quite naturally sheds that skin, revealing a new, moist, beautiful and vibrant new skin."
It just happens. Nothing lasts forever.
Certainly being honest to yourself and possibly writing and talking about it on a forum like this is quite helpful because your comrades usually will not judge you critically.
Be gentle with yourself because it is mostly nature expressing itself through you. If you could have given it up for the sake of your SO or whoever, you would have done so. It quite possibly has to be played out for a while until it no longer owns you and you can get a grip on it.
But in the meantime, while it has you, stay calm and focused and very conscious of the addiction without hating or blaming yourself. You are not bad for wanting sex with gorgeous women. It is a rather healthy natural impulse. While it has you, possibly "do it" but don't "overdo" it.
If you can, sometimes say "no" when you feel that your intuition is advising against it.
Peace and good luck, brothers. You will all succeed in enjoying your pleasures without being run by them.