Fishfry: You summed up that particular experience perfectly. Thanks for presenting the ultimate dialectical problem. I have often scheduled time with a provider a week or more in advance. I then practice monk-like behavior until that day. Yet, on occasion I have given in, a few times to my right hand, or more likely to another provider or very close friend. Should I cancel my session because I am not at full capacity, or should I honor my commitment and proceed? Although I never problematize this in terms of saving cash, I do worry that I will not perform adequately. Should I take the high road and follow through on the session, or beg off, citing either a conflict or the real reason for my reticience? I would appreciate your insights.