Re: you SAID u'll answer all questions . . .
Originally posted by h. von bingen
1. what does this mean?
i don't know; what's mdma like? i think they called it mda in my day.
since i know that drugs are yr hobby:
i wasn't asking whether u see providers on vacation. i was asking whether u were on vacation owing to the fact that there had been a quiet period b/f yr true confession.
o, btw, re: yr true confession. u can meet people in the funniest places. why should it matter that u met her while she was working? although, if the affair had a built-in in limit wrt duration, i wonder whether u weren't just dicking around w/yrself anyway.
i don't think living w/a hooker is really subject to as much social oppobrium as people think. if it was, why would so many books and movies use it as a plot device?
r u lonely tonight?
hvb
I did say any question. And I meant it.
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The influence of Catholicism on my life is more subtle than my having to marry a Catholic woman.
Perhaps more to the point, I do not believe that Jeses Christ was the son of God and died on the cross to seek forgiveness for our sins and that the path to eternal life with God lies in accepting Jesus as my savior and therefore living by his teachings.
I do think Catholicism is a rather pretty religion (or at least before Paul got ahold of it). I also like the idea of redemption through forgiveness (reconciliation) and love. Furthermore, I admire the degree of scholarly Catholic persuit. It's incredibly well developed in its theology (something most Protestants throw away... shame).
Obviously, subjection to dogma will change you, and when the dogma is a seriously weird as Catholic (transubstantiation?) then it'll probably change you in a weird way.
Hmm... although I don't believe any of the mythos, I did think long and hard before chosing my name saint (the angel Michael, I figure I need all the help I can get), I won't eat the host unless I'm reconciled, and I do pray (I am, ultimately, a deist which the more mathematical part of my brain still sjakes its head at) when I can't think of anything else to do.
I'm not really sure how else to phrase it.
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I believe MDMA is what they made after one of the organic precursors to MDA was made widely unavailable. I believe they are chemically similar. But I never really got into the science of the stuff.
Drugs aren't my hobby, although I did used to take a lot of them (not as many as you (but close), but only one of us was tempered by 'Just say No')
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My sojourn from the board was prompted by family matters. I thought you were asking if I had been involved with her while on vacation (which implied a point that you made later in your post)
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Why should it matter how I met her? I subscribe to the theory that the prostitue / john dynamic is so charged with false pretense, dishonesty, dysfunction, and mutual exploitation that it is (all but) impossible to convert that into a healthy relationship.
The dicking myself around point is one that I've wondered at before (and was what I thought you were implying with the vacation coment). I've decided, no. I can't think of a way to express my line of thinking on this subject right now. I imagine it's akin to the how do you know what love is? Or even more accurately, How do you know you aren't deluding yourself?
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If it weren't remarkable, why would so many books and movies use it as a plot device?
(Those books and movies generally go out of their way to de-emphasize the prostitution in the prostitute's life, or worse, to hold it as a the counterforce to some set of redeaming qualities).
And she was not a hooker when I was with her. She was an ex-hooker.
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I am lonely in a way that can only be felt in a metropolis, when you are surrounded by friends and family that care about and love you. Such loneliness, I think, is a hallmark of modernity and its increased individuality and isolation. The Japanese cinimatic tradition is brilliant at capturing this.
Yes, I do miss her.