Part 5 - Stopping Time
Time stopped. Lily was on top of me, her wet pussy rubbing the length of my hard, bare cock. Most of life hurtles past me incomprehensibly. Days, minutes, hours pass. People come and go and my memories are acute but they return unpredictably, without any overarching organization or even a coherent narrative.
This instant, this moment, this second was different. I was in command of every sense, aware of everything around me and I was utterly able to see, hear and taste things that I can't usually grasp at all, details that escape me like water through my fingers. I could hear the second hand ticking in the clock on the wall. I could feel the towel underneath me and smell the bleach and detergent that had been used to clean it. I could see every atom and molecule that made up Lily's face, and I could see the naked lust in her eyes.
I eased myself forward, a centimeter at the most. I could feel myself enter her, the very end of me just inside the very beginning of her in some broken hearted alpha and omega, it was everything everything everything and nothing. I looked into her eyes and fell and fell and fell, there was no bottom to them, this was a limitless wellspring, something past me, past her, past New York and past planet Earth. I fell and tumbled and plummeted and then it stopped. She closed her eyes and pulled back, physically just a millimeter but emotionally it was a mile. She pulled back and then she lifted herself up off me. Her eyes wouldn't meet my eyes. I was on fire, I was in a hailstorm, I was a cork on the ocean, I was a man, fuck me, I was a man.
I lay back and waited. Inside me a riot of emotionless desire and desirous emotion was erupting but I said nothing. I leveled my breathing. I felt her soft hand on my hard cock. I needed her with an intensity that was wrong, wrong, wrong and just right. I wanted her, all of her, everything. I would take any part I could have.
She began to stroke me slowly, her eyes averted, her face in a fog of hidden emotion and suppressed desire. She oiled her hand a little and sped up with hard fast full strokes. I could feel that I was going to come and gave myself over to her. Harder, faster, fuck yeah baby, and then she stopped cold.
I tried to look her in the eyes but she avoided my gaze like a cat running from bathwater. Slowly, slowly, slowly she started up again with long strokes that made me sigh. She began to speed up and I could feel my orgasm roiling away inside me and creeping forth. I was close to the edge when she stopped cold.
I heard a long, slow guttural moan and then realized it was coming from me. This was exquisite and perfect torture, this handjob to end all handjobs, this escalating spiral of impossible pleasure. She started again and I could hear her breathing now, heavy breaths of arousal and desperation. Still she wouldn't meet my gaze but I touched her lightly on her ass and I saw her shudder. Faster now, she stroked and I reached under her skirt and ran my finger along the wet opening between her legs and she sighed. Again I felt myself about to achieve release...and again she stopped.
"Please," I breathed, "please Lily. Please let me come."
Finally she looked me in the eyes and I saw the clouds of desire and I was lost in her perfect gaze. She started again slowly and I touched her again. She reached down with her left hand and slowly inserted one finger into my ass. Faster now, faster, her right hand was a blur. She was grinding only my hand and breathing heavily. She pushed with her left hand and her finger made contact with my prostate and my neck spasmed involuntarily.
My chest was heaving and moaning and I felt it building from my heart to my stomach to my crotch and then there was nothing that could be done to stop it and it erupted from me, once, twice, three times, four times. I was shaking from head to toe and Lily's face was contorted in a tableau of her own pleasure as she stopped grinding and simply pressed herself onto my hand and from her mouth came an incomprehensible sequence of Chinese and English sounds that filled the room like a red cloud.
She lay down across me and for a few moments we lay in blissful silence and I felt a peaceful calm settle over me as I held her and we simply breathed together.