in the last few months I turned 35 and realized what insane sexual life I have had. From girlfriends, NP4P, SWs, nightclubs, stripclubs, internet ‘dating’ apps, social media whores…
There are certain girls who stand out.
One was a young 19 yr. old girl I cold approached picked up at the Barnes & Noble in East Northport. Brianna.
She was gorgeous - 5’2, grey blue eyes, perky Bs on a tight spinner body.
When you scroll her IG feed you can see the decline right before your eyes like one of the old school pocket sized animated flip books.
Grew up quite normal enough, quite addicted to many things. Pop culture, trying to fit in. One of the popular in girls at school. However always liked flirting with breaking the rules.
Sometime shortly into college you can see it set in. That she has walked off into a path with the wrong crowd. Degenerate sleazy back alley men, questionable bold tattos straight out the gate, swan dive off into a life of stripping and escorting. Admiring the lifestyles of influencers, modern trap culture and the Gen Z mindset of being drugged up by something all the time (did they even stand a chance?)
Her death in 2021 at 21 recently brought a wave of memories for me of the brief time I spent with her. Which in hindsight was a pivotal point in this girls life. When I hit on her in the bookstore she was holding a copy of Jenna Jameson’s autobiography and made it like taking candy from a baby in how smooth talking to her I was.
We got high on cannabis in my car shortly after meeting, went to a thrift store then I decided to call in to work.
We ended up getting drunk at a bar in Huntington and fucking in my car in back of the Valencia Tavern. What a night.
Next time we hang out we go to the Witches Brew and fuck close by at the Capri. However after this time she starts crying.
Telling me she has a boyfriend her age who she is cheating on but he has no clue what hes doing in bed & does too many drugs to perform. I ask what drugs and she says shes not sure - “weed, pills, coke… whatever”.
Yup…
Next time we meet I decide to take her for a nature walk at Lakland county preserve. We had a conversation the first time we met that she never gets outdoors. This park leads off at some point into an even larger state park that you can get lost in. Very barren sections and secluded. We get to one miles in and far from anything or anyone.
She says she never been fucked outdoors in the day time, pulls down my pants and starts going to town on my cock. Showed up this time with a nose ring and a massive all seeing eye throat tattoo (very well done too). I still remember looking at the stream and sky then down at her beautiful eyes.
It was this moment I realized I still had it for a guy in my early 30s getting hot chicks more than a decade younger.
On this nature walk she also told me she was now stripping at Oasis in Smithtown & loved it because it made her feel like a rap video model. Yeah…
It was apparent she started doing hard drugs and her boyfriend got her the stripper gig.
So I go to the club one night random after seeing her promoting it on her IG. This is the same IG she used since middle school. Her digital footprint and legacy. I go knowing this is my last time seeing her, not because I wanted to but because of a gut feeling.
When I get there she is stunned because its a surprise and well I find the boyfriend is there.
She comes over to me like a normal stripper customer and pretend she doesn’t know me. Whispers in my ear ‘thats him, you don’t know me’ and licks it as she pulls away.
She takes the stage shortly later and eye fucks me throughout, the same eye fucking when blowing me or pounding her out.
As her song ends and she goes for her round of tips I irish exit before she hits my seat, throw my keys in the ignition and drive away.
On the way home I get a text
“I am sorry, I know my situation is complicated. Will I see you again?’
I never replied.
a few months later, her cousin who is a well known LI tattoo artist would post of Brianna’s passing. A drug overdose.
I wish I would have done more for her.