There I was peddling my bike around Suffolk County after getting back for my NYC senior high school trip. I was looking for a stationary store that sold porn mags. This day was the day I chose to take my dive into buying my own pornography. No more nonchalant, flipping magazine pages at a friends house when he brought his older brother’s stash out. Nope. I was going to buy very first porno mag. I remember that day vividly. I bought the Hustler July 1997 issue.
My story with taking a deep dive into the world of smut and hookers isn’t very eventful. My story isn’t one like Johnny Football getting his knee bent the opposite direction in his final HS game and missing out on his D1 scholarship. Where the townsfolk are so upset at the wasted talented. No. It’s just one of a nice kid that, due to those around him, chose the comfort of those naked women looking back at him in those nudie mags.
The topic of porn addiction can get heated online in addiction forums. Some say it’s not an addiction because of how the brain responds to viewing porn. It’s not anywhere near what happens to a drug addicts. However, studies have shown that the same parts of the brain light up whether it’s cocaine or viewing a gang bang. There’s a lot of research being done and more will be learned about this addiction. It’s an addiction to me because I will spend hours a day watching. I won’t cum. I’ll just edge all day. Bring myself to the brink of cumming, then stop. This goes on for hours. The porn scenes become more hardcore. There’s days where all I think about is porn. Days where I’m not, catching a quick glance of some woman’s cleavage at work will send me spiraling down the porn rabbit hole.
So, with this thread I want to get a few things off my mind. I’m not here to demonize porn. Like anything in this world, moderation is key. But with me and porn, I indulge in it all.
My story with taking a deep dive into the world of smut and hookers isn’t very eventful. My story isn’t one like Johnny Football getting his knee bent the opposite direction in his final HS game and missing out on his D1 scholarship. Where the townsfolk are so upset at the wasted talented. No. It’s just one of a nice kid that, due to those around him, chose the comfort of those naked women looking back at him in those nudie mags.
The topic of porn addiction can get heated online in addiction forums. Some say it’s not an addiction because of how the brain responds to viewing porn. It’s not anywhere near what happens to a drug addicts. However, studies have shown that the same parts of the brain light up whether it’s cocaine or viewing a gang bang. There’s a lot of research being done and more will be learned about this addiction. It’s an addiction to me because I will spend hours a day watching. I won’t cum. I’ll just edge all day. Bring myself to the brink of cumming, then stop. This goes on for hours. The porn scenes become more hardcore. There’s days where all I think about is porn. Days where I’m not, catching a quick glance of some woman’s cleavage at work will send me spiraling down the porn rabbit hole.
So, with this thread I want to get a few things off my mind. I’m not here to demonize porn. Like anything in this world, moderation is key. But with me and porn, I indulge in it all.
