Happy Birthday
One year later and it's still raining. Everything else is a little worse for the wear. That hat needs to be blocked, those shiny two tones need new soles. My head is a little grayer, my brain a little foggier. She needs company, and I am always available.
We meet in the place where we had our first date, as the clouds gather I scan the crowds of tourists for her face. I look west and then I look north and then finally she is there, my lovely Mia, every bit as beautiful as the day we met. I touch her elbow and peck her cheek, playing the gentleman. I usher her through the revolving door and we are shown to a table - just next to the table we occupied so long ago.
My mind reels, it stretches and it snaps and I am turned around, upside down and nowhere at all. This beautiful woman sits before me again and for the moment I let myself enjoy the light of her smile, and all I can do is remember.
It was about a year and half ago, it seems like a century, it seems like eternity has passed between us. She ordered lobster and steak and got herself drunk on Long Island Iced Teas. We made broken conversation that skirted our language differences like a sparrow darting from branch to branch. We laughed and maybe, just maybe we started falling in love. We stepped outside and I hailed a cab and called a hotel and before long we were naked in that bed together, the first of many nights we would spend together, our naked bodies entwined until the sun would come and nudge us apart.
Today we understand each other, but we talk around the gulf between us. We talk about the weather, we talk about business, we talk about anything but what I've done. We step gingerly and lightly around each other until I touch her hand. She is drinking Long Island Iced Teas. I want her so much, I want to press my lips to hers and run my hands over her body and I want to pick her up and bring her to my bed. I see the future. She will be drunk. I will kiss her. We will go back to her place and I'll fuck her, it may be the last chance I have to feel her body around mine, to feel myself inside her.
I touch her hand, I pay the check, I take her to the door. I kiss her lightly at first and then harder and then our tongues are intertwined. Outside the rain is pounding. It's her birthday. Exactly one year ago it rained just like this. It poured and it poured and I disappointed her. I vowed that night never to hurt her again, never to disappoint her again, and yet that's exactly what I did. In her kindness and love she took me back two times, three times, but my luck has run out. I want her, I want to bend her over that massage table and feel my cock inside her wet pussy, I want to taste her again, I want to feel her warm mouth on my hard cock. I want all that, but that's not all I want. I want her to be mine again. I want her to feel the way I feel, I want her forgiveness and her love.
I guide her through the rain, up Fifth Avenue, dodging raindrops that surround us like explosions. Across two long blocks and we are almost there. Finally, wet from the rain and our own perspiration we arrive.
In the elevator I kiss her hard and she kisses back. I am going to have her again, she will be mine. We walk through the door and into the little room where we have spent hours, days, weeks together. I kiss her and pull her to me. I touch her, she swoons a little. I can taste the alcohol on her breath. I pull her dress over her head. I reach behind her and unhook her bra and then I take one beautiful brown nipple into my mouth, then the other. She moans a little. She will be mine.
Kneeling, I pull her panties down. I lay her down on the table and she spreads her legs. I taste her lightly. My tongue on the lips, then inside her, then teasing her clitoris. Lightly I start, then I move faster and harder, feeling her respond, I change my movements. My tongue in slow circles, then faster, then back and forth, hard and fast. Her hands are on her breasts, teasing her own nipples. I hear her breathing rise. I shake my head faster and then I press my tongue hard against her clitoris and her whole body shakes and spasms and her face contorts in a perfect tableau of pleasure.
I pull my clothes off and stand above her, my hard cock protruding from my body, There is a knock at the door. She is needed. She pulls her dress on to attend to some bit of business. I sit for a moment and breathe. Everything is quiet and dark. I look inside myself. I look inside and I ask myself what I want. I want what I have lost. I want her. I don't want her pussy, her ass, her mouth. I want her heart. I want her mind. I want her, but I don't want her this way. I don't want a drunken afternoon escapade. I want her, I want her like I have never wanted anyone, and the feeling never goes away.
I dress quietly. When she returns I am in my hat and coat. "You need to leave?" she asks. "Yeah," I say. "Work…"
I hold her close to me again and kiss her deeply. I pull back and kiss her lightly, then I kiss her forehead. On her cheek, a single tear succumbs to gravity and rolls its way slowly down. I wipe it away. "Don't be sad," I tell her. "Good things will come." It's a lie I have told myself a thousand times.
I kiss her once more and whisper "happy birthday" before turning away. Outside the rain pours down in torrents and floods the streets of Manhattan like an Old Testament deluge. I extend one foot and those worn out two tones guide me the way they always have. I pull my hat down low and my collar up high, and slowly, I begin to walk away. Slowly, slowly, slowly I walk away until finally, I am gone.