Certainly sex addition is real. We can feel trapped, frustrated, bored and give up to our temptation for the quick fix. We can use independent hos, porn, or AMP visits to get that thrill and sooth the itch. We are weak, and can usually feel the guilt, no matter how well it went. I stopped for many years. I just wanted to be faithful when I got married. Porn always stayed with me, but I hadn't touched another woman until about 6 months ago. Now I need to fight the constant urge and weight on my mind. It is distracting, and I am dropping the ball on things I need to do. I found a provider who is awesome and I just think about her all the time. If I can keep this thing to maybe once a month, it might be OK, I am thinking. But, it hasn't been. If she is resting or unavailable, I run out to dip my stick somewhere else. I feel like I am getting in trouble with our hobby. Yikes, I gotta get it under control again.