After years of searching for a non-pro for play, I finally found her.
Ever since I was a teen I've enjoyed bdsm. I started out as a masochist and found myself bottoming, mostly to pro-dommes over the years. I always enjoyed harder and harder play. As most of you know, sex with pros is usually not on the table, and that was fine. I was lucky enough to have some "personal slave" relationships when I was younger (and had more hair and was in better shape). Eventually came marriage and vanilla and kids and then hating the s/o and no sex what-so-ever. The lack of disposable income has put a stop to any type of play, along with not being able to hide transactions and my refusal to take money out of the family needs, despite my growing need for companionship or sex or kink.
I've been searching on OKC, Fet and some others, but mostly morbidly obese black female subs would contact me. Just not my thing. I'm too picky, and have too many neuroses - I admit it. Also, I won't put up any face pic or even share online because of my situation and my line of work. I eventually changed my dating site profile to a blatant bdsm one, but ambiguous as to whether dom or sub.
I open up a 26 year old cute chick (who has nothing kink related in her profile) but we are a near 100% match. After a week or so of messaging come to find out she's submissive. Like major. We start sexting and she's sending nudes. She's got roommates and I've got wife and kids at home. She's desperate to meet. I meet up with her one night in front of her place just to see if she's as real as she appears and holy shit- she is. She's hotter in person and a fucking slut. I'm fingering her in some shitty part of Brooklyn and I've got her against a wall as she's trying to get my dick out. She wants me to choke her and I oblige, but theres no way I'm getting put on the internet fucking a chick or getting blown- I calm her down and tell her I'm married. She doesn't care! She just wants it.
I tell her we'll figure out logistics and go home with blue balls. The next week is her non stop messaging me nudes, telling me how much she wants me and how she's getting fucked by other guys and what they do to her. Meet up again outside her job and again wants to pull her clothes off.
Neither can afford a hotel, I can't/won't show id, theres always a roommate home, I need to be able to shower off any possible signs of her before I get home and I won't bang her in public. (She's offered to fuck in bathrooms- gross!!!)
And oh yeah, she wants me to beat her and choke her and face fuck her, fuck her ass, fist her and more. So I've pretty much found the female version of me, and I can't fucking find a place to use her. Despite the fact that I've been looking for someone like her pretty much my whole life. And she really is hot.
As the kids say, "FML".
I've got an appointment next week with a dr. where I expect to get generic viagra, because there's no way in hell I'm not going to perform. (And I'm hoping for a 4 hour erection with her).
Ever since I was a teen I've enjoyed bdsm. I started out as a masochist and found myself bottoming, mostly to pro-dommes over the years. I always enjoyed harder and harder play. As most of you know, sex with pros is usually not on the table, and that was fine. I was lucky enough to have some "personal slave" relationships when I was younger (and had more hair and was in better shape). Eventually came marriage and vanilla and kids and then hating the s/o and no sex what-so-ever. The lack of disposable income has put a stop to any type of play, along with not being able to hide transactions and my refusal to take money out of the family needs, despite my growing need for companionship or sex or kink.
I've been searching on OKC, Fet and some others, but mostly morbidly obese black female subs would contact me. Just not my thing. I'm too picky, and have too many neuroses - I admit it. Also, I won't put up any face pic or even share online because of my situation and my line of work. I eventually changed my dating site profile to a blatant bdsm one, but ambiguous as to whether dom or sub.
I open up a 26 year old cute chick (who has nothing kink related in her profile) but we are a near 100% match. After a week or so of messaging come to find out she's submissive. Like major. We start sexting and she's sending nudes. She's got roommates and I've got wife and kids at home. She's desperate to meet. I meet up with her one night in front of her place just to see if she's as real as she appears and holy shit- she is. She's hotter in person and a fucking slut. I'm fingering her in some shitty part of Brooklyn and I've got her against a wall as she's trying to get my dick out. She wants me to choke her and I oblige, but theres no way I'm getting put on the internet fucking a chick or getting blown- I calm her down and tell her I'm married. She doesn't care! She just wants it.
I tell her we'll figure out logistics and go home with blue balls. The next week is her non stop messaging me nudes, telling me how much she wants me and how she's getting fucked by other guys and what they do to her. Meet up again outside her job and again wants to pull her clothes off.
Neither can afford a hotel, I can't/won't show id, theres always a roommate home, I need to be able to shower off any possible signs of her before I get home and I won't bang her in public. (She's offered to fuck in bathrooms- gross!!!)
And oh yeah, she wants me to beat her and choke her and face fuck her, fuck her ass, fist her and more. So I've pretty much found the female version of me, and I can't fucking find a place to use her. Despite the fact that I've been looking for someone like her pretty much my whole life. And she really is hot.
As the kids say, "FML".
I've got an appointment next week with a dr. where I expect to get generic viagra, because there's no way in hell I'm not going to perform. (And I'm hoping for a 4 hour erection with her).