The other night I was in an Asian Karaoke-type place in the Asian Pacific. They have back rooms for light snacks and tea and I guess you could bring your own bottle. I don't. I knew a girl there who I have not seen in a year. A slight falling out and some frustration a year ago because never full service. So I never came back. But I saw her standing in a red dress with heels, cuter than Bettie Boop, smiling at me from ear to ear and I could not resist.
We sat in a private tea room and cuddled. She is not at all jaded and is very fresh, sensual, wide-eyed and more like a country girl. She had her period and she guided me to the cotton protection to alleviate any concerns that she was lying. This girl has very low miles on her and around 25 years old. She is not a virgin by any means but she is more like a Karaoke girl. She goes into a party room with you and you could just sit and drink tea and talk, grab and hold her and it could escalate into something more, depending on chemistry.
On the other side she goes into a larger Karaoke room and older men are getting drunk and loud and sing love songs and pay her to be by their side and pour them drinks and they have a pretty young mistress on their side to fondle and make a good time but nothing more.
Anyway, recently, for some pain in my joints, I have been taking some traditional Chinese medicine and it is very potent. It is a formula with strong ginseng, deer antler, goji and tortoise shell gelatin. The verdict is still out on whether it helps my joint pain, BUT it has really fattened up junior's girth, size and breadth. So, we are frolicking and junior makes his bold presence be known and she can't get out of his way and pulls him out with some amazement at his recent weight-gain. She dry-humped him and handled him and enjoyed him and the hour was up.
She got a call to party with the older gents but she got me tea and snacks and told me to stay put and not to leave. She left and I could hear her singing and the old men's drunken boisterous singing. I was happy to wait for a while but after 30 or 40 minutes I began to think that maybe I misunderstood her and maybe she meant that she was leaving and I could drink tea and leave at my own leisure. So, I pack up and am getting ready to leave as she storms in the room and asks where am I going and she jumps on me cowgirl style and pulls out junior and pants and grinds and tells me she wants him but not all of him next time and we spend another hour together, no charge.
To be quite honest, going back might be a problem. She looks into my eyes with lust and adoration and quite frankly, and I never thought that I would admit this, "I am too old for this."
My problem has always been forming too deeply ties to these gals. Upon leaving, I met up with another ATF and she stormed away from me with great anger because I avoid her. She is showing miles.
Earlier that morning when the thought came to me to hit the town, a little voice told me not to go. I heard it but ignored it. Because, quite honestly, while not taking a vow of celibacy, this whole game is getting a bit withered. I find it hard to leave it completely after it being a life-style since my early twenties, but at the same time, I am not enjoying the roller-coaster ride.
I find it impossible to just do my business very zen-like and leave and forget. The nature of the act is so intimate that there is a residual lingering of affection that could exist on both sides. It is more of a problem when she likes you and now you are drawn into an emotional cyclone that will probably not end in harmony.
I will have to say, in order with keeping with the topic, they can start to like you for whatever reason, physical, emotional, psychological. And sometimes it is more than financial. Sometimes it is because you might invest something more than their fee into them and they feel some comfort or some happiness on some level.