You sound really pussy whipped, you come off as a little weak and fragile. Even a little "Cuck" like in some of your posts, not sure of your angle here, or if you are even a guy, but get a hold of yourself. First off, stop posting your personal shit on here, it can connect a lot of dots. You don't want that drama. Secondly, drug addicts make their own choices, their loved ones/or closest are the ones that usually end up suffering the most in terms of the mental Anguish they're put through, why keep doing it to yourself?
You fucked up, you fell for a whore who only saw you as a cash cow $$$ ......rule numero uno in this game, never think you turning a 'Ho into a housewife. We all seek the attention of these women for our own different reasons, but make NO mistake about it, at then end of the day its a transaction. IDC how many evenings you two spent together sharing your deepest thoughts over a bottle of wine. One thing addicts do best is manipulate. It's their MO to get whatever it is they need to survive. You were a mark and you got turned out.
So take that and turn it into a positive and go do some shit for yourself, whatever it be. As your name says, EasyGoingExec, sounds like you might be a successful dude who has the finances to whatever he wants. Do it, stop sulking over a street whore who took you with her golden pussy and head game. Because that wasn't what you fell for, you fell for her manipulation. Her "head game" ie, is the manipulation.